It's a Blue day

From too much sleep to insomnia... all I needed to flip the coin was a virtual slap in the face from my michigan monster...
In line for the movie tonight I saw a guy that looked so much like him... and I completely lost it...
... the mere sight of someone that looks like him has the power to shove me to my knees gasping for air...
what would happen if I saw him again?
would the earth open and swallow me whole?
how do I get over this?
when I still love and miss him after all this time even though he has betrayed me in the worst possible way and left me for dead?